Give Yourself Freedom to Rise ☆

𝓣𝒽𝑒 𝓡𝒾𝓈𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓢𝑒𝓁𝒻

I recalled a lifetime where I was a young girl divulging intimate details about my family to other people.  My gossip ended up ruining the family name.  My mother was enraged and used scissors to violently cut my tongue out!  Yes, it was traumatic to remember this.  But my spirit guides helped me to look at it from a detached perspective without emotion.  When I was able to move past the physical and mental pain of it, it explained so much about why I have had an ongoing fear of saying the wrong thing, speaking about myself, or telling too much about my family in this lifetime!

 

The guides have helped me with letting go of this trauma and we have slowly been opening pieces of it as I’m ready for them…

 

The first piece was that this exchange between my own soul and the soul playing the part of my mother in that lifetime was all arranged for some reason.  I knew we agreed to do this for each other, but I didn’t know why.  However, that was enough to ease all of my suffering about it.  At least I had something now to help me understand where this fear stemmed from.

 

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Next time we looked at it, I saw further into the future after my mouth had healed.  I actually became grateful to my mother later on in life because, without a tongue and the use of language, I found ways to communicate with my touch, my eyes, my body language, and my energy.  I reached people’s hearts without needing to speak and I used my love for animals as inspiration.  I saw the way they could lift spirits and they didn’t need words to do it.  I helped so many and I was even able to communicate with animals and help them, too.

 

I don’t have fear of being hurt or killed for saying the wrong thing because I’m a soul; I can’t be hurt or killed.  I know this and yet more fear about persecution came up again recently when I spoke my feelings, so we revisited this incident.  But this time, we watched it like a movie.  We looked at is as though it wasn’t real because, truly, nothing occurring here is “real”:  It’s a dream.  Even this moment is a dream.  When the movie was over, I hugged the “actress”, the other soul, and we thanked each other for making it so real!  We gave great performances!  I told her she had me going there because I really felt the emotions like it was real!

 

We also imagined all of my chakras, beginning at the feet, and cleansed them with purifying love from Earth and from Heaven.  We flushed out all the residue laying on the sides and this one was tough to dislodge because it was latched onto me like a barbed fish-hook.  When the cleansing was over, I was tired.  The guides said to rest and not give it any more thought and to let the energy continue to work through me.  When the moment was right, it would guide me further about how to release more.

 

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And that was the truth because I thought about it again later in the day and found that I hadn’t yet given myself a break about all the times in my present lifetime when I’d had fear about speaking about myself and my family.  And there were so many times like this, even just in random moments of chatting with someone in passing.  So often, people tended to ask what was going on with me or my husband.  It is just as natural as talking about the weather or saying, “How are you today?”.  I know people consider this to be a sign of caring, to ask me how I am, because they appreciate when someone asks them how they are.  But for me, it triggered this trauma in me every time!

 

I went over these memories and I released all of the pent-up guilt I was still holding onto.  I hadn’t put this together before and it’s a crucial piece to letting go of trauma.  Compassion for myself in those moments came up and compassion for myself in any future moments will be strong now, as well.  If there ever comes a time when someone seems to be pressuring me to talk about what’s going on in my home-life, I can express to them that I’d rather talk about something else.  I don’t have to explain myself and I don’t have to put myself through it if I’m not comfortable!

 

However, I feel ready for that now!  I will be able to answer questions about myself without this fear in the way because I know where it came from and I see how much emphasis I had put onto it.  The “acting” was so proficient that I believed it was real.  I gave the incident so much validity that it held strong into this lifetime and probably in others.  Uncovering all of this is going to let me release it in all lifetimes!  I can feel it leaving.  I feel like this is also what stifled a lot of my urges to dance and sing and act and dress up in funny costumes.  In other words, it stopped me from being myself.  It’s all over now.  I’m ready for a fresh perspective without this block in the way!

 

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