Play in the Emotions

Hello, our sweet angels.  We are all here and we are with you in all of your moments.  There isn’t one moment that we aren’t a part of with you.  We are at your side always and we love being here.  We thank you because we know it isn’t easy.  We know there are times when you wonder where the advancements are.  You expect things to change because you have, but you don’t see it the way you thought you would.  You expected to see massive changes on a global scale as well as miraculous changes in yourself, and you awaken each day to find that it’s all the same.
 
Our divine ones… 
 
Guides, I need to interrupt.  I’m tired of going to the ledge and having you talk me off of it, over and over.  I know the answers; we all do.  I want to stop going to the ledge.  I want to start finding it easy to get back.  But it’s true that I really want to see big changes.  I can’t imagine what it’s like for those who have been awake for so much longer.  I’ve only known this was all coming since 2017.  Some have known since the 80’s and 90’s.  I was in happy oblivion then.  However, I wasn’t happy!  Would I have been happy if I had known?  It doesn’t matter because only now matters.  And now I do know and yet I still talk like this... sad and tired.  I’m still happy to see the numbers and synchronicities every time!  They light me up just a little!
 
Our beloved, you are lit up IN FULL!  Nothing has dimmed your light!  However, it is masked when you ask it to mask.  Sometimes you need it to be guarded: It needs a recharge before you can show it and shine it!  You feel bad when you want to shield and shelter it, and it’s ok!!  It’s ok to feel bad.  You are having human emotions and they’re ok to have.
 
You wanted this part of the experience, our sweet angel!  Enjoy feeling bad – yes, as strange as that sounds, it’s for you to enjoy.  You know in the back of you that there’s no reason for it and you know you can turn it off, and yet you don’t do it and you feel like you’re supposed to be frustrated about that, but look further.  There’s a part of you which wants to feel this; even the frustration for feeling it.
 
You are looking for the whole enchilada.  You want to play in the emotions!  Have no shame in that because you have asked and now you are receiving and it’s a glorious miracle that you are able to feel these low feelings.  Do you know how far this is from your true nature?  Do you know what power it took to get even a little lower?  Ease up on you.  Be gentle on you.  It is all ok just like it is.
 
Wow.  I wasn’t expecting that for a response!  Thank you, angels!  I guess I thought you were going to show me my power to rise up.
 
We know you have that too, but we know you have this power to go low, as well.  We recognize everything you do as love’s power!  Sort it out for yourself.  There is nothing deep to uncover here, our sweet beloved Ali.  You are just exploring and that’s the point of your experience.  Explore and play and try it all.  The changes you desire will come, but there’s no hurry when you understand that you’re in this for more than just changes coming; you’re here and this is what you have created, so then enjoy it in whatever way that means to you!
 
We love you!
-I, Source-Consciousness